Dissapointment

I went to purchase my order for textbook with him yesterday. Though it was a short 20mins perhaps? It was enough with the fact that he has brightened up my day. I went back home to relax a while before heading to Lechelle's house to give tuition. I was quite shocked when her mother asked if I wanted to teach her English. I wonder if her mom realised that I wasn't a Singaporean. I told her that I would consider it though.

Had a lecture early in the morning at 9am which lasted for 2hours after which I went to have lunch with Junwei and Nghia. Followed after that, Junwei and I headed to OurSpace to slack for a little while. He left around 12.30pm for his lecture while I was busy downloading MVs to be converted to MP4 and finally Sya replied my message! However, the content and our topic started to turn into disappointment for me as she was trying to persuade me so that I could forget about my EC. Anyway, she was looking for evidence that he wasn't interested at all. I knew that and in the fact, I was the one who kept on denying for him and stated that he did not seem to be interested in me AT ALL. In fact, I did think about it, but I kept on lying to myself and Sya made me realise about this again. I wasn't angry with her, really, coz she had said nothing wrong. I know that I should give up, but the feeling of admiring someone you really like was just that awesome. I did not have this type of feeling before and this is just amazing. I knew that she was not intending to spoil my mood but I just could not help but to keep on thinking about it. It was bothering me, I wouldn't deny. I'm the type that if I like a person, I'll just keep on liking that person for a very long period of time, sometimes even 2 years? Yeah, ikr, that was stupid but I couldn't help to do so. 

I was just looking for excuses for him. He would never initiate to have lunch or dinner or to have an outing together, not even started any conversations on Facebook or SMS before. However on the other hand, he has never rejected helping me and seemed to enjoy each and every conversation we had, obviously I was the one who started them every time. However, having a good time chatting made me think that it was paid off. I felt like a dumb who had been cheated in relationships and friendships especially for don't know how many thousands of times, but I just never learnt. Alright, I did learn something okay? but I couldn't control myself to repeat the same mistake. One of them which is liking someone that would never or most probably wouldn't like me back. Idiot right? How I envy those couple whereby they liked each other and ended up together, how fated they are. It had just never happened on me before, NEVER, not even once. Either the person I liked did not fancy me or the person who was interested in me but I wasn't. It was really hard to even find one person that could make your heartbeat raced. That's the only fact I know. Whenever I see him, be it coincidentally or not, I would be very hyped up and sometimes even became nervous for no reason as my hands would shake uncontrollably. I would also hear my heart beats very fast. That type of feeling was the one that I had never experienced before, really. 

I have no idea how to let go and I wouldn't want to because I know the next time I see him, the history will repeat itself. How I wish~

2nd Day of School @NP

This morning when I was sleeping, I waited for Junxian to morning call me so that I would not be late for our breakfast @Munch. However, while I was half sleeping, I felt that something itchy was crawling on my leg. So, I naturally went and grabbed it with the intention to scratch my leg with my hands. Surprisingly, I felt something rather hard and as big as my thumb size, I took a look while it was still quite dark. To my surprise, it was a cockroach. I was like WTF and swept it hard immediately with my naked hands. I felt so disgusted and spent the rest of the 10minutes staring at my leg. It was really damn freaking disgusting, I swear. At that moment, I knew that Junxian did not need to morning call me anymore. After 10mins staring, the cockroach reappeared from small corner and I faster took broom to sweep it away. Thereafter, I faster went to wash my leg and hands. I really really really felt disgusted. 

While I was on the way to school on MRT from Dover to Clementi, the train stopped halfway and I had a bad instinct. The operator announced this "This train will stop here as the train ahead is at the next station." I realised that the train still did not move even after 3mins of waiting time. After that, the operator started to announce again "This train would be delayed as there is a train fault ahead.Sorry for the inconvenience caused." There was a really awkward silence in MRT and I could also hear them sighing. Thanks goodness I went to school earlier eventhough our lecture is at 9am. If not, I would be late already. Another 9mins passed and the train finally moved. I could tell from the crowd at Clementi MRT station that everyone was very impatient waiting for the train.
Entered the lecture hall punctually, today's lesson is very slack, but the lecturer is very boring. Everyone wasn't paying attention and I was totally in internet world. After a while, I decided to blog about it and take some pictures.

Damn sian in the class. This is my lecture hall! :) Able to fit max 250students.

Trying to act cute but did not dare to overdo it coz lecturer is talking. Pshhhh~

Quite ugly ah, but still decided to upload it

Looking at lecturer

Class ended fast. Finally can take a nice one.

I went to CCA Fiesta with Junwei and I immediately signed up for Rotaract Club. I did not really have a clear idea about what's the CCA about. However, it is roughly something like Community Service within Singapore. They do go overseas but once in a blue moon. The most important part was that their events are all during weekends or weekdays (PH) so it wouldn't clash with my other CCA. Cool! I need not worry about joining BA envoys anymore. 

Slacked with fellow Outramians: JingQuan, Derrick and Junwei at OurSpace. I had never had this much fun talking, laughing with them, especially the part where JingQuan and I would shoot back each other. I really really miss that.

Additional info from Aaron, he told us that Glenn actually kinda told him that whoever interviewed will be accepted into BA Envoys cause they kinda lack of members. In other words, once you apply to join, go for interview, you'll be promised for a position in BA Envoys! Wow. Sounds promising! :)

Around 3pm, I joined back 979, decorated birthday card for XinYing followed by 4pm, Abygail, JunXian and I went to Somerset Fossil to buy for XinYing's birthday present, a $109 wallet. After which, we returned to school and I waited for 979 to finish their Dance For Fun practice at Dance Studio. 
Afterwhich, they all went to Munch to have dinner together and OMG I SAW JS! Never regretted coming here with them! XDDDDD I went over to remind him about what time to meet tomorrow which I actually did not need to do so as I've already told him. It was kinda my excuse to go say Hi and talk to him. OMG I think I'm crazy LOL. Anyway, kinda can tell that he's quite sociable and popular as he's always surrounded by friends, most of the time girls. He said that he was neither low profile or high profile before, who knows? It's not surprising to find that he's high profile to me. Yeap, anyway, history repeats itself. I was busy surfing the net while the rest were eating. Another corner of my eyes will uncontrollably look at him as well. He was chatting away happily with another girl and guy sitting together with him. It's okay, looking at people you fancy from far apart could bring you happiness also, sometimes. So near, yet so far.

1st Day of Official School

WOHOOOO I was like so damn excited for today, official first day of Poly. Dread of cannot survive in Poly and would ended not up to my expectation, I still decided to come to Poly. 

I feel so proud to be a student of Ngee Ann! :)

Damn nice right? Nature is Beauty. ^^

There were different sayings, some say that Poly life is really relaxing, which makes people despise Poly students. My seniors say when it comes to study, we must really study and not to slack, but when it comes to fun, we just need to play hard. 

Right, my aunt is classified in the stereotype thinking, she kept on saying that Poly is very relaxing and seemed to find every single evidence to make me stop my excuses of being busy after enrolled in Poly. My Mom too. She just seemed not being able to accept the fact that I've spent long hours in school for the past 1week for the sake of BAOC preparation. So, what could I do? I talked back to her, as usual. 

Right, that's not the point. Anyway, my lecture starts at 9am and lasted for 2hours. I was supposed to wait for Crystal to pass me money to purchase my textbooks at 1pm and collect with JS. :) 

However, the plan was kinda ruined because Crystal's ATM card was stuck inside Clementi MRT station's ATM machine. So, I told JS to go home and I stayed at OurSpace@72 without knowing what to do. I ended up taking out my 那些年 DVD (:D) and watched it until 3.30pm. The rest of my DPA friends went ahead after lecture to Orchard Road to buy for XinYing's birthday present. Then I regretted for not joining them. I ate alone @Munch. Seriously, I had never ever felt so awkward of eating alone before. Not even once when I have done a lot of times before. 
The briefing ended up damn boring, started with ice-breaking games which has no more meaning for us, obviously as we DPA class never split. However, my classmates somehow acted dumb and pretended to not knowing us to make fun of the seniors LOL. Anyway, the whole main point of the briefing is to bond us and to brief us roughly about academic matters. Really damn freaking boring. I fell asleep eventually even though I prevented myself from doing so. The most epic part was that I was shocked and became wide awake after I heard "you can only be accepted into local Uni if your O level English is <3". I was like WTS WTH WTF? DAFUQQQQ? Seriously. I only got B4. Then my classmates started to discuss about retaking it by this year which was already too late because the application date was already closed. They were afraid that English system would change more if we drag. 
I asked Crystal not to wait for my briefing to finish as mine would only end at 6pm while hers at 4pm. I went for dinner with fellow DPA classmates at KAP. Seriously, if it wasn't because of Huimin and Aaron, I might have left 979 for good. Somehow, they gave me the strength and was the reason of why I still tag along with them because I know that they would not ignore me like what the rest did. And most importantly, they DO understand me.

Anyway, upon writing this blog, I somehow reminded of the fact that my landlady is going back to China on July and will never come back to Singapore anymore. To her, this is kinda a sad land with sad memories. I was informed out of sudden to look for new place and move out as soon as possible. While I was waiting for my Indonesian friends to discuss and settle about the plan of staying together in 1 flat and tacking my mom's cold water bucket saying that I was naive and it wasn't an easy thing to arrange, I am seriously very vexed. Lost, don't know what to do. Alright, it's 11.24pm and I shall end my post here. 
Nights~ Sleep tight.

Birthday Preparation

Tomorrow is HuiYing's birthday, a friend that I've met when I first came to Outram Secondary School. So, she's kinda important to me as she is one of my best friends, who has been there for me a lot of times whenever I need her. She might be the one who has heard my complaints the most, also the one who has been there for me when the whole wide world seems to be opposing me. So yeah, Hoa, Lina, YuShuo and I obviously planned to celebrate birthday for her. 

I set off around 12.15pm yesterday to meet Lina at Dhoby Ghaut to buy Birthday card for HuiYing. We eventually spent very long time at two shops, having a hard time to choose for the best design. As you can see, there are really lots of design @PaperWorks.

The pictures are quite blur because I was not too sure if photographing is allowed or not. Haha

These are the cards that have went through the 1st selection by me. :)

and I liked this "Rock-A-Bye-Baby" card the most. Damn cute with the notes. Huiying loves music. ^^

After selecting for damn long, we decided to move on to another shop which I did not take note of the name. They also have a lot of designs and we finally picked our favourites and planned to combine two cards together. At the end of the day, we bought just two cards and a colourful thread. Basically, that's all. We had decided to make use of the materials we had and to decorate it with our creativity. Seriously, I love artwork. 

So, we moved on to Lina's hostel to get things started.

It was a total mess at the start coz we have no idea how to start with doing it.

We cut of the letters from Present Perfect Magazine to form "Happy Birthday" for the card.

Still choosing which one to cut

Arranging the newspapers

Newspapers which we burnt the sides

That's me! :) A bit unglam, yeah ikr.

Yeah, I've filled up the top left hand side while Lina wrote on the top left hand side

Made by me with the colourful thread. Nice, right? Love this part the most. 

Finally done at the end of the day.

By the time we finished everything, it was already like 8.30pm? Damn tiring but I've got a great sense of accomplishment! :) So excited for tomorrow's outing. Really really love the birthday card to the max. Good night. :D

Tired

This morning was a disaster. Good Friday? There are tons of SMS and Email to clear as soon as I reach my workplace. Thanks Goodness I wasn't late. If I were late, it would have been the end for me. 

The queue was long like hell and all full-timers and supervisors were handling the "war" outside while I was fighting myself without allies. While I was in the midst of clearing the SMS, Richard has been entering inside constantly asking me to help him change this and help him to change that. Couldn't he see that I was freaking busy?

While I helped him to do stuff whenever he walked in, I need to beware of miss-booking. Any miss-booking would cause disaster this morning as everyone was very vexed. Same goes to me. While I was busy reading the message, the stupid phones just couldn't stop ringing. The callers were all very determined. After a while, Elaine came in and asked me to help her to staple the receipt with the tickets. I told her I would do for her later, but my later ended up like forever. Siti finally came around 11am and she helped me to staple them around 12pm? The queue was finally cleared. My SMS and Emails too. Lady bosses were also around, increasing my level of stress. Everyone came in to "borrow" my computer. 

My stomach was growling non-stop but I couldn't have time to grab a bite. Who has the mood to do so during the war? Thankfully, lady boss treated us lunch. Mac lunch WHOOoo! By that time, I was almost K.O. already. I was going to crash. As soon as my work ends, I raced back home, throw all my clothes into washing machine, pressed the start and crashed to my beloved bed. That nap was awesome, as if I've slept for 10years LOL (exaggerating). Today is just too awesome. TGIF LOL.