So actually for those who were close with me 2 years back, you guys do know that my heart did melted for this guy Mr.K (which we shall address so in my posts). He was probably the first and the most gentleman I've ever met then. It seems like he wasn't even my type from the start based on his physical appearance (yeah, judger me. he looks good but his height is just not that up to my expectation sorry) but due to a close interaction with him during his trip to sg that time (and I was kind of their tour guide?), I realised what a nice person he was. He is just pleasant to be with and I just can't help but to fall for him.
I like the way he teases me with his mean yet flirtatious remarks; the way he would protect me with his actions; the way physical contact like accidental hand brush that occurs when we were walking close, the way he scolded me for shooting at him all the time during L4D game at LAN and the way he directed me with both of his hands firmly grab my shoulders.
Oh oh and did I mention how thoughtful he is and man he is, despite his size? He might not be the most romantic guy ever, but actions speak louder than words. At least he doesn't drink, doesn't smoke, isn't arrogant and doesn't have the attitude problems like how my father is.
And through the 5 Love Language Test, it is accurate that I my love language is actually physical touch.
Okay, I know what you are thinking but don't get carried away by judging me as you read the words "physical touch". I'm not sexual driven or anything okay. This was the description based on the result of the test :
"To this person, nothing speaks more deeply than appropriate touch."
So........ You got the idea already?
Anyways, the purpose of this test is to find out what you actually look for the most in a relationship so that you can communicate about your needs to your partner in order for you guys to last long okay? Sounds good isn't it? :)
And yep, it's definitely accurate! I know the question are kinda wordy and a bit too much to answer. Some questions are actually repeated, but don't fret coz it is just a way that the test reconfirms what type of lover you really are. So, just bear with it kay?
(So here's the link just in case you guys want to try out as well: http://www.5lovelanguages.com/profile/)
However, my heart kinda aches when he got into relationship with one that I know and selfishly, I do hope silently that they .... *ahem* you get what I wanted to say right?
Even after Mr. K came to sg to pursue his diploma, their long distance relationship seems to go well and I kinda envy them when I was out with them a couple of times. I always slapped myself hard in my mind in order to remind myself that he was attached with a very sweet and beautiful girl that I would never ever be able to replace. What I could do was slowly trying my best to let go and give them my blessing silently behind the scene. And knowing him being proud of how their long distance relationship lasted aches me y'know. I was very careful with my actions so that he couldn't tell that I actually had this affection towards him but I guess it was hard coz he treated all the girls the same okay.
Why must he be so irresistably gentleman omg. Why Whyyyyyyyyyyyyy.............
But just a few months back, they officially broke up. I should be happy isn't it? But I just kinda empathise him and felt very wasteful for the relationship that he was so proud with. Worst still, the reason behind is due to the lack of interactions. Ouch. It just hurts to hear that the girl finally could not take it and decided to let go of him.
So we hung out more often lately and we sort of joked more about relationship thingy. I just kind of 暗爽 when he joked about this type of stuff with me okay, but I just reacted like how we normally bicker. I do open up myself more in front of him lately and more physical contacts constantly occurs and he even pulled my fingers when he was trying to disturb me with the beef full of blood in the market. I know that it was just him being friendly and that was why I tried damn hard to maintain myself in order for me not to get hurt if it was really just a misunderstanding. Even if it was a misunderstanding, I believe that it will be 美丽的误会. I do not really know if he feels the same way as I do or if anyone else had seen it through but I'm actually just waiting for that one question.
Sounds dramatic right? Just that one question, and I'd have no more regrets man.
